After everything else that had come up, or otherwise been thrown at him, being watched while he was asleep was downright tame. Besides…he wasn’t unguilty of having watched the Guardian while he was napping on the couch back at the apartment, either.
But there it was. ‘Love’, and specifically, with Aoba. It wasn’t just about being physical. Everyone had known it, the majority of himself included, but there it was, said without Aoba having to ask directly for it. It still made him feel better to hear.
“It’s not that I don’t want physical things,” came the next admittance, face heating up again as he thought of how worked up he’d gotten the once. He wasn’t going to fess to that, though. “I just…I freaked out when it came out sounding like that was the only thing part of me cared about. Because it’s not. And you being another guy, it doesn’t have to matter the way it would back home, either. I only care about you being you.”
He fumbled briefly, finding himself almost on the verge of another rambling spiral. Desire was strongly present, watching, but still doing no more than back him up.
Finally, he braced himself said, “I’ve got a million things I still have to learn about myself. I don’t know how good I can really be for you right now, but…I still want to give you everything you’ll accept from me…as the person who loves you, too.”
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But there it was. ‘Love’, and specifically, with Aoba. It wasn’t just about being physical. Everyone had known it, the majority of himself included, but there it was, said without Aoba having to ask directly for it. It still made him feel better to hear.
“It’s not that I don’t want physical things,” came the next admittance, face heating up again as he thought of how worked up he’d gotten the once. He wasn’t going to fess to that, though. “I just…I freaked out when it came out sounding like that was the only thing part of me cared about. Because it’s not. And you being another guy, it doesn’t have to matter the way it would back home, either. I only care about you being you.”
He fumbled briefly, finding himself almost on the verge of another rambling spiral. Desire was strongly present, watching, but still doing no more than back him up.
Finally, he braced himself said, “I’ve got a million things I still have to learn about myself. I don’t know how good I can really be for you right now, but…I still want to give you everything you’ll accept from me…as the person who loves you, too.”