Any conflicting emotion on Reno's part was completely lost on Makishima. He was too shocked to process his own emotions much less someone else's. He did manage to nod and as Reno started to walk he hurried after him to stay as close to Reno as possible. Whatever was out here it had to be dangerous if Reno was swiveling his head like that. He'd never seen Reno look like this. In England, Reno didn't care if he went into the worst places imaginable to Makishima. The man practically went looking for trouble, but here he actually seemed cautious. It made Makishima nervous.
Focusing on what Reno was actually saying wasn't easy, but he forced himself to. That Reno was angry seemed obvious but what he was angry about wasn't so clear. Was he angry that Makishima had followed him and fallen into this mess? Was he angry that he now had to take care of Makishima? It was really too much. What did manage to stick with Makishima was that for all intents and purposes Reno was an alien. Perhaps a very humanoid looking one with all the same body parts as Makishima had, but an alien all the same. He supposed that explained the strange glow to Reno's eyes. Makishima had always wondered at it and the fact that Reno insisted the lights stay on while they had sex. Makishima assumed it was some kind of pride thing, but perhaps it was more that that glow would only be brought out if it were fully dark. It made sense in a way.
It was a comfort to know that time might not be directly affected by Makishima's sudden departure. He thought now of the days or weeks that sometimes went by with Reno gone. Just how long were those gaps for Reno? He usually returned extremely happy to see Makishima as if it had been ages since he'd seen Makishima. Maki had always assumed that was some clingy nature of Reno's, Toudou could be like that, but maybe it was that actual months had passed. Perhaps Reno was happy to see him because he genuinely didn't know just how long it would be before he could see him again. That made Makishima feel guilty and suddenly those little, petty annoyances didn't mean so much to him. God he really had made a mistake.
"Reno," Makishima said quietly, reaching out to take his hand in his. He wanted to apologize, needed to.
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Focusing on what Reno was actually saying wasn't easy, but he forced himself to. That Reno was angry seemed obvious but what he was angry about wasn't so clear. Was he angry that Makishima had followed him and fallen into this mess? Was he angry that he now had to take care of Makishima? It was really too much. What did manage to stick with Makishima was that for all intents and purposes Reno was an alien. Perhaps a very humanoid looking one with all the same body parts as Makishima had, but an alien all the same. He supposed that explained the strange glow to Reno's eyes. Makishima had always wondered at it and the fact that Reno insisted the lights stay on while they had sex. Makishima assumed it was some kind of pride thing, but perhaps it was more that that glow would only be brought out if it were fully dark. It made sense in a way.
It was a comfort to know that time might not be directly affected by Makishima's sudden departure. He thought now of the days or weeks that sometimes went by with Reno gone. Just how long were those gaps for Reno? He usually returned extremely happy to see Makishima as if it had been ages since he'd seen Makishima. Maki had always assumed that was some clingy nature of Reno's, Toudou could be like that, but maybe it was that actual months had passed. Perhaps Reno was happy to see him because he genuinely didn't know just how long it would be before he could see him again. That made Makishima feel guilty and suddenly those little, petty annoyances didn't mean so much to him. God he really had made a mistake.
"Reno," Makishima said quietly, reaching out to take his hand in his. He wanted to apologize, needed to.