Something about that single word sent shivers down Makishima's spine. He wasn't sure what that niggling feeling was, but he brushed it off as just that -- a feeling. If Reno was okay with it then that was a good thing right? Except then Reno was talking about some big job that would keep him away. It made Makishima's eyebrows knit together in confusion. Surely he would have said something about it before wouldn't he? Well, he supposed it wouldn't matter now if they were going on a break and that was all for the best wasn't it? Then why did he feel sick all of a sudden?
"A-ah-h," He made a small sound in the back of his throat as acknowledgment. "Sure, sho." Of course he wouldn't question Reno's motives. He'd always been truthful and honest with him, at least for the most part. He had had to pry a little to get straight answers from him but he never felt like Reno was intentionally lying to him so he didn't suspect anything now either. Except that kiss felt weird and something in Reno's eyes worried Maki. Something in the way he held Maki's face and looked at him as if it was the last time he'd see him made Makishima worry. Surely he was over reacting. It was his first relationship after all and this was just a break. It wasn't permanent, it was just some time to get his head on straight so he could keep being with Reno and not feeling as if he was free falling off a cliff.
He nodded shallowly at Reno's farewell, watching as he headed out the door. The heavy feeling in his heart didn't go away.
What had just happened?
He stared at the money, always more than the bill was and even more than what a tip should have been, but Maki never said anything about it. He always assumed Reno was just generous and that was one of the things he loved about him.
Loved...Had he fallen in love with Reno? Makishima knew he'd been dancing around that particular 4-letter word for some time, but even though it'd been 6 months it all felt too soon. Too much too fast and that was why he'd had to pull the breaks, but now that he had he felt disoriented.
He stared at the cash and the remainder of the food, idly twirling his straw when that niggling feeling seemed to find the cord it had been looking for. What if Reno had thought Makishima meant the break was permanent? Fear rang true in Maki's heart and he pulled his phone out to call Reno right then just to make sure he understood that Maki hadn't meant the break to be anything permanent at all. At the least he wanted to ease his own fears that Reno had misunderstood him. This always seemed to happen with their important talks and Maki cursed himself for not trying to be more clear on his intent.
He slid out of the booth and headed out of the door as he waited on the rings, but when the phone went to voicemail he felt his heart drop into his stomach.
No, way. He was just over reacting wasn't he?
But what if he wasn't?
What if he lost Reno right then because he'd been an idiot?
Fear guiding him, Makishima looked right and then left down the street but there was no sign of the red-head. He needed to find him, so taking off at a run he headed in the direction he'd typically seen Reno leave. He had to find him before he lost him for good.
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"A-ah-h," He made a small sound in the back of his throat as acknowledgment. "Sure, sho." Of course he wouldn't question Reno's motives. He'd always been truthful and honest with him, at least for the most part. He had had to pry a little to get straight answers from him but he never felt like Reno was intentionally lying to him so he didn't suspect anything now either. Except that kiss felt weird and something in Reno's eyes worried Maki. Something in the way he held Maki's face and looked at him as if it was the last time he'd see him made Makishima worry. Surely he was over reacting. It was his first relationship after all and this was just a break. It wasn't permanent, it was just some time to get his head on straight so he could keep being with Reno and not feeling as if he was free falling off a cliff.
He nodded shallowly at Reno's farewell, watching as he headed out the door. The heavy feeling in his heart didn't go away.
What had just happened?
He stared at the money, always more than the bill was and even more than what a tip should have been, but Maki never said anything about it. He always assumed Reno was just generous and that was one of the things he loved about him.
Loved...Had he fallen in love with Reno? Makishima knew he'd been dancing around that particular 4-letter word for some time, but even though it'd been 6 months it all felt too soon. Too much too fast and that was why he'd had to pull the breaks, but now that he had he felt disoriented.
He stared at the cash and the remainder of the food, idly twirling his straw when that niggling feeling seemed to find the cord it had been looking for. What if Reno had thought Makishima meant the break was permanent? Fear rang true in Maki's heart and he pulled his phone out to call Reno right then just to make sure he understood that Maki hadn't meant the break to be anything permanent at all. At the least he wanted to ease his own fears that Reno had misunderstood him. This always seemed to happen with their important talks and Maki cursed himself for not trying to be more clear on his intent.
He slid out of the booth and headed out of the door as he waited on the rings, but when the phone went to voicemail he felt his heart drop into his stomach.
No, way. He was just over reacting wasn't he?
But what if he wasn't?
What if he lost Reno right then because he'd been an idiot?
Fear guiding him, Makishima looked right and then left down the street but there was no sign of the red-head. He needed to find him, so taking off at a run he headed in the direction he'd typically seen Reno leave. He had to find him before he lost him for good.