"It," Makishima started to speak before his own nerves caught up with him. He paused and took a deep breath and a drink of his water. He had to remind himself that this might not be an ending. It wasn't going to be an ending.
"I've been thinking and," Another pause as his words caught in his throat. He really was no good at these sort of things. Maybe he should just keep quiet? No he had to do this. "I've really enjoyed us being together, sho." He let out one of his nervous laughs then, pushed back his hair in a nervous gesture and reached out to play with his straw in the water he'd been drinking.
"There's some things I'm having a little trouble getting used to. I'm...I'm not used to someone else always being there and I still don't know a lot about what you do for a living, sho." He kept his gaze firmly fixed on the plate of nachos. Looking at Reno was too hard right now. "I'm always worried about you. I...I'm scared one day you're just not going to answer my text and I won't know what happened."
Forget the chips. Makishima let go of the straw and put his hand up over his eyes as if that would help.
"And besides that you...I feel like you treat me like I'm going to break sometimes, sho." He lets out another laugh and drops his hand. "I...It's too much right now and I have school to focus on and..."
He looked at Reno then and felt as if his own heart was jumping up to his throat. "I think I just need a break for a bit, sho." Not forever, just a little. Just to get his head back into the game. That was okay wasn't it? Then why did he feel like an ass?
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"I've been thinking and," Another pause as his words caught in his throat. He really was no good at these sort of things. Maybe he should just keep quiet? No he had to do this. "I've really enjoyed us being together, sho." He let out one of his nervous laughs then, pushed back his hair in a nervous gesture and reached out to play with his straw in the water he'd been drinking.
"There's some things I'm having a little trouble getting used to. I'm...I'm not used to someone else always being there and I still don't know a lot about what you do for a living, sho." He kept his gaze firmly fixed on the plate of nachos. Looking at Reno was too hard right now. "I'm always worried about you. I...I'm scared one day you're just not going to answer my text and I won't know what happened."
Forget the chips. Makishima let go of the straw and put his hand up over his eyes as if that would help.
"And besides that you...I feel like you treat me like I'm going to break sometimes, sho." He lets out another laugh and drops his hand. "I...It's too much right now and I have school to focus on and..."
He looked at Reno then and felt as if his own heart was jumping up to his throat. "I think I just need a break for a bit, sho." Not forever, just a little. Just to get his head back into the game. That was okay wasn't it? Then why did he feel like an ass?